xin li de yan lei

2010-12-12T20:37:00.003+08:00

I un-privated my blog. Cos i thought it's meaningless to make it private.
So yeah.

And i'll be leaving for europe today and will be back in 2 weeks just in time for 6R chalet.

Hahahaha i totally ignored messages related to guitar and 4F stuff.
But i didn't feel a tad bit guilty at all. :D

Toooodles all!

2010-11-17T22:09:00.005+08:00

I've found a new space,
so i'm sorta abandoning this blog now,
for real.

Holiday's been great for a start.
I've been resting, doing things i've been wanting to do all along,
and it just feels great. ;D

Hoping that everyone enjoys their holidays too. :)

2010-11-16T22:38:00.008+08:00

Downloaded this song a few months ago but it was only until today that i really paid attention to the lyrics of the song. And it's pretty. ;)

SAILBOATS by sky sailing

Sailboats wish that they were stars,
Floating softly in the sky,
Among our dreams that bid goodbye,
Moving thru transparent space,
Drifting thru the stratosphere,
And onwards 'til they disappear,

These continents from overhead,
Look like tiny paper shapes,
Intricately set in place,
Below the misty mountain clouds,
There's a lovely silver bay,
Where sunset sailors often hide away,

Scuba-diver in the loch,
Speed-boat driver on the dock,
Sailboat pilot in the blue, take me up there with you,
The world looks brighter from this high altitude,

I was walking thru the trees,
And I was swimming thru the seas,
I was falling thru the air,
When it hit me right there,
My eyes are tired and I don't even care,

An airplane carried me to bed,
Where I slept above the coast,
And dreamt I had become a ghost,
I sailed above the frozen peaks,
Deep in cold cathedral caves,
Across the hills and far beyond the waves,

Take the car on the run,
And fly the jet to the sun,
And bring the spacecraft in soon,
While I play chess with the moon,
I feel like sleeping thru this cold afternoon,

Once in 1964, an actress ran on the shore,
And though you'll never return,
I love you Audrey Hepburn,
Sometimes I can see your face in the crowd,
There are sailboats throughout this brilliant sky,
But you cannot pick them out if you can't fly,
I'm glad the Earth doesn't care if I go up there,
If you want to just ask me and I'll take you along.

Ps. Audrey hepburn is easily one of the prettiest woman who's ever lived on this earth, to me. :)

2010-11-16T21:30:00.003+08:00

Thank God, all is over.

Even though i know i didn't do well and
there are many things to regret about,
but i'm just soooooo happy that it's over.

And right now, it's real paradise. :D

2010-11-15T00:53:00.008+08:00

Omg omg omg i'm like really panicking right now cos i just recalled that i left the sunday school song visual aids in the yf meeting room in church!
Omg how how how?! What if someone like takes it away or smth? I will dieeee a horrible death. I will have to go down to church to get the visual aids out of the room before someone takes it! But there's nothing i can do about it right now, so CALM DOWN.

Alright, so i watched star search (2010) for the first time today. It was the semi-finals where the 20 contestants had to battle out for the top 10 places through dancing and acting. And the other half would have to end their journey to becoming the next star. Sad much? Anyway, surprisingly, star search was not bad! Though they weren't exactly all eye candy, especially for the girls. But some guys were actually not bad looking. x) And a few of the short skits performed with the mediacorp celebrities were kinda funny. I liked the michelle chia and aunty lucy one. :D

Btw, my dad and mom have been nagging at me all night and yesterday too for not studying. WTH it's just a stupid bio mcq paper what do they freakin expect me to do?! I shouldn't even have told them that i still have one more paper to go on monday. Biggest mistake i've made in my life lol. The feeling of being nagged at just SUCKS. It's soooo EXTREMEEEELY irritating, and i swear i will never ever do that to my children in the future. But i don't even bother to debate/argue with them over such stuff... a total waste of my breath. I'm gonna learn the art of turning off my ears and ~~pretend~~ BE deaf for that moment.
That's the best way to live. :D

Chairing of yf meeting today went fine, though the opening was extremely bad and i seriously felt like burying my face in ground.

Well tmr's the last paper.
Let me finish it off well.

Pray. :)

2010-11-14T17:47:00.000+08:00

Okay, vampire diaries is actually getting better
as the series goes on. Though not exactly addictive yet.

Anybody watches Life unexpected?
:)

2010-11-13T17:40:00.002+08:00

OMGGGG!!!
DOES ANYONE REMEMBER THEM?!!
They were my childhood. :D

2010-11-13T17:18:00.002+08:00

“This is your hand, these are my hands, this is the world,
which is round but not flat and has more colors
than we can see.
It begins, it has an end,
this is what you will
come back to, this is your hand.”
— from You Begin by Margaret Atwood

2010-11-13T00:26:00.000+08:00

Oh ted.

2010-11-13T00:24:00.001+08:00

Oh barney.

2010-11-12T21:08:00.019+08:00

TADAAAAA!
After o's to do list:

1. Go for hair treatment & hair cut
LOL.

2. Kbox!
Jay jay jay jay jay yay!!!! :D

3. Blog!
I guess i started this a little early

4. Dates/gatherings/outings
6R, retards, guitar clique???

5. Watch movie dvds!
Sister bought TONS of movie dvds after her promos was over and omgggg i can finally watch them! (Breakfast at tiffany's, amelie, eternal sunshine of the spotless mind, little miss sunshine, 500 days of summer, pierrot le fou, paris, je t'aime, etc etc.) And of course, the huge load of un-watched movie dvds i bought before prelims! (Yeah, but most of them are stupid i think. My sister picks much better movies than me D:)

6. Watch my shows!!! (on tv + download + buy dvds!)
I've been waiting for this day to come since AGESSS. :D
I'm gonna start watching: pushing daisies, flash forward, 24 & vampire diaries. Gonna catch up with the episodes of NCIS & one tree hill that i haven't watched! And gonna have modern family, 30 rock, the office & how i met your mother marathon! There's still many many many MANY others i really wanna watch but i need TIME!

7. Download songs & explore new genres/artiste/bands!
Haven't gotten the time to download songs since o'levels started and i've been getting sick of the weepies and missy higgins and all HAHA. Nah, they're still the BEST :D

8. Improve my guitar skills
I'm finally finally finally going back for guitar lessons tmr after a 3 week break! I really hope i would have more time to spend on my guitar during the holidays :D Reminder: CUT NAILS! :)
Oh wait yes, what about my acoustic guitar?!

9. Read books
I think i've made this resolution since the beginning of the year,
but the only book i've read was kite runner (which i started reading last saturday when i was supposed to be studying SS lol). I've finished reading kite runner already and it's seriously, a great book! It's a lot better than the movie i must say. :D Oh yeah anyway, i think i'm being influenced by my sister A LOT. My sister is seriously an avid reader. Like, she reads almost 24/7, when she's not shopping or watching tv. And i think my sister reads really cool books from really cool authors. I've seen quite a lot of them which she borrows from the library (eg. nicole krauss, murakami, stephen chbosky, milan kundera and lotsa many others i can't rmb cos i'm not a fan of books). But i really think reading books is a really cool hobby (but only if you read good ones), and i've been wanting to pick that up since like, a long time ago. And i hope to start this holiday. :)

10. Plan for yf anniversary
After listing down so many stuff, number ten is actually, and seriously, MY PRIORITY! From invitation cards to door gifts, to bulletin to assigning roles, to refreshments to decorations, to the main celebration, THERE'S SERIOUSLY LOTS OF WORK TO BE DONE! Luckily i'm not in charge of the special item cos i'm not good with music at all. Anyway the anniversary's gonna be on the 11th of dec, and it's less than a month from now!
Should i start panicking or what?!!!

11,12,13,14,15,16,17........ Go Shopping!!!
If you were wondering where the shopping went, you know it will NEVER be missed out. Holidays are made for shopping. :D

Alright, that's mostly what i'll be up to from now till the 5th of december.
I'll be leaving for yf camp from 6th to the 10th.
Yf anniversary will be on the 11th,
and then i'll be flying off to europe on the 12th for 2 weeks!
I'm not really sure exactly when i'll be back from europe,
but i'm reeeeaaaallly afraid that i will be missing christmas celebrations in singapore. Zhihao said we will be reaching singapore right smack on the 25th so i'd be in time for christmas service. Well, i really hope that's so. I'm keeping my fingers crossed!

And in no time we'll have to say goodbye to 2010 and welcome the new year.
I know it's a universal fact but i just have to say it again,
HOW TIME FLIES.

Seriously. I can't believe o'levels are actually over for me already.
I mean, just yesterday i was in melbourne getting blown away by nature,
and now i'm here, getting ready to say hello to another year of challenges and a whole new life. ;D It's absolutely crazy. Well anyway, i'm just hoping i would treasure every single day of my holidays and live it to the fullest. I'm all set for a REAL fun-filled holiday! So much that i can't wait!

Okay but right now i've gotta prepare for this sunday's yf gospel meeting.
I've not chaired for so long that i'm actually feeling nervous?
But i'm even more nervous about the attendance on sunday.
Lord, please help!

And monday shall come quickly. :)

2010-11-12T20:42:00.005+08:00

Alright, so it's a fridaaaaaay, and there's only one more paper left to go!
Yeah screw all those chem-physics people! O'level is officially over for them now and it's HOLIDAY for them already! That's sooooo great!
The only feeling i get right now is - booooo.... one more paper to go :(((

SCREW BIO.

But i still went out to celebrate with michelle, zixing and shuqi today!!! :D
Went to ion orchard after our chem paper and window shopped alot.
We probably did for the whole morning and afternoon we were there.
Anyway i'm gonna make a trip there again next week for sure cos i needa go shopping! Like, how long has it been since i last went shopping?! I feel tortured. lol. :/ Shuqi and zixing left earlier for their class' BBQ, and michelle and i continued window shopping till bout 5.

I've not bought my pushing daisies dvd yet,
but fret not, i'm gonna have my hands on it soon! :)

Okay so well. 2 days more till FREEDOM!
I mean, officially. lol. :D

2010-11-12T20:12:00.003+08:00

Okay, i changed my mind :D
I'm not gonna get a sony handycam no more,
i want the sony bloggie camcorders!

OMG OMG OMG OMG!
Aren't they so pretty?! :D

Features:
1920x1080 full HD,
5x optical and 20x digital zoom (4x for pm5k),
5mgp still capture,
270 degrees swivel lens,
in-built USB connector,
image stabilization

I'd think the 2nd one would be better considering the optical zoom,
but it only comes in one colour which is purple.
I really love the 1st one in all blue/white/pink colour.
Which one should i get?!!!
Oh manzzz this sucks big time! :(

2010-11-11T19:35:00.003+08:00

Was watching animal cops miami earlier on animal planet.
America's such a cool country producing such interesting and unique shows. :D

I don't think there's even an animal rescuer organization in singapore.
Okay, maybe SPCA. I don't really know what SPCA does but i'd be really glad if they are like animal cops.

Okayyyy so my mom fetched me from school again this morning.
I'm really grateful for her. It takes at least 25 minutes getting from our home to school by car, and she has to fetch me every morning, go back home, then come and pick me up again from school. And our paper today was only 1 hour! So she probably only stayed home for like, 15 minutes before leaving the house to come and pick me. My mom is really nice at times like these. :)

Alright anyway. Reached home and asked my dad to check my answers for the physics mcq paper. Not all, just those that i was really unsure of, and he sorta boosted my confidence a little. :D But he spotted mistakes for questions i was ACTUALLY confident of. Wth right.
And the stupid thermistor and variable resistor really made me angry with myself! I can't believe i didn't read my notes before the paper to check the difference between both of them. Eventually, i chose the wrong one. Boo. What a waste manzzz. :(

Bntm makes me pissed. Idk why.
Okay, i think i know why.
I just can't stand the lousy production team and judges.
I really don't know where bntm is heading to.
I guess it's only the girls and their accents which make it quite interesting to watch.
But antm really impresses. :D

OKAY ANYWAY I BETTER START STUDYING FOR CHEM MCQ TMR. ;D

Haha i think the digital life newspaper has become the new toysRus catalogue for me. :)

2010-11-10T16:33:00.004+08:00

I'm doing this not because i'm reviving my craze over idol groups; not for bands who can't sing or dance, nor for bands who can sing and dance, not for any commercialized band that all they truly want is fame (just that they're always putting on that ilovemusic&dance pretense - all that unbelievable shit), not for any band that think that their hard work can touch their viewers, not for any band who think that their comical and amusing gigs can win over the hearts of fans, not for any band who uses (fake) touching stories thinking that they can win over the support of fans. Not anymore. I've stopped believing; believing that (kpop) idol groups actually deserve our love and support.

But bbt (now known as bbt-F) is NOT kpop and moreover i'm doing this not because i still like them, but as a once bbt fan, it's sad to see them in this situation right now, where members have left, where it seems that their hopes are starting to fade, yet they're still HANGING ON. And all i can wish for is for them to continue being who they are (the personality their fans first fell in love with), doing what they do best, and keeping the same dream alive.

So here, is the incredible, almighty, magnificent LOLLIPOP F :D
Though they may not really be THAT good, but oh well, they're a crazy ass hard-worker and they're REAL.

And i will continue supporting them till the end of the world. :)

**Note: See the credits for composers & lyricist at the start of the mv?
That's aoquan and xiaoyu, that lovely xiaoyu.
I'm so proud that he's still hanging on in bbt.
I'd really thought he would go, like in 2008?
Though i was quite puzzled/surprised at first learning that
he's still in it after 2 losers left.
But the fact is he's still in it and i'm so effing proud of him. :D

I'm not gonna rant on how disappointed and pissed i am with xiaojie (yes, i am utterly PISSED with xiaojie though i have absolutely no idea why he made this incredibly disappointing decision and am not curious either because i'm just devastated by the news and i'm feeling really regretful that he was my favourite once; for a short period only and now i'm so thankful that it was only for a short period). Let's not talk about the other disgusting unpopular and FUGLY guy who left because he's just a enormous loser who thinks he is so high and mighty and can walk away just like that because, hey mister zilian-pile-of-dung, bbt is way better off without you. :D

And on a separate note,
who can dare to say i'm not a loyal fan? :)

2010-11-10T15:11:00.011+08:00

I'm feeling really happy now cos i just won a lucky draw! :D
Hahahahaha! And the prize is a sony digital camera!
I know it's quite blah but hey, winning lucky draws don't come easily you know!
I was like really excited and screamingggg and my sister was like: "chey lousy camera only." And immediately i kicked her in her butt and she got kinda angry. lol. :D Oh well. I just won a lucky draw! I think the last time i won a lucky draw was the bbt monster fest concert tix two years ago which i was REALLY BLESSED BY GOD. The person who passed me the tix even confirmed it and said that i was REEEAAAALLLY LUCKY because there were a gazillion people who entered the contest. I don't know why, but everytime i win a lucky draw, i would sort of know that i would win it when i submit my entry haha. And lucky draws that i know i wouldn't win, i woudn't even bother to submit. So yeah. Creepy.

Gonna go down to petra foods next friday to collect my prize!
Which by then, all my papers will be OVER!

Oh and higher chinese paper went rather well (that's what i think only) today.
Yeah, i'm only aiming to pass so I THINK I CAN PASS.

And i'm a HAPPY girl. :D

Ps. Excitement felt after winning a lucky draw
doesn't come from the prize but from
the joy of the fact that you were the chosen one
who was blessed enough to win it.
And yes, i'm blessed. :)

2010-11-08T16:01:00.009+08:00

Okay well so while i was camping in my olevel concentration camp, i was obliged to watch singapore channels because the extremely pathetic tv there didn't have cable. :/ Yes, otherwise the whole concentration camp thing wouldn't work out you see lol. But it was only then that i found out that channel 5 actually shows better shows after midnight! I bet no one knew about house and csi and how i met your mother being aired on channel 5 at certain time slots! Well at least i only got to know about it after i shifted into the condo 7 weeks ago. And i'm starting to watch channel 5 more often now though, even when i'm not staying in the condo; shows like survivor: nicaragua (cos they don't have it on cable and i don't bother watching it online) and amazing race when i miss the slot on axn. :) And channel 5 also shows season 6 of desperate housewives too! Do most singaporeans actually know about this at all? Or is it just me? And it so happened that i was watching advertisements and i learned that channel 5 was going to show vampire diaries on saturdays! (So much for me being an anti-twilight that i refuse to watch vd and now even channel 5 is airing it) Yeah but only the first season. So i watched the first episode two weeks ago, and sad to say, i was really disappointed. It did, in many ways, resemble twilight. But obviously the cast were way much cuter than those in twilight. lol. Okay well i just hope that it will be a more interesting watch as the story unfolds. And i will be able to press on unlike gossip girl lol. :D

Wait. Why am i ranting all about on channel 5 now???
I'm sucha weird singaporean.

Oh btw, i wanna get one tree hill and pushing daisies boxsets after o's! :D

2010-11-08T15:50:00.001+08:00

I WANNA GO BUNGEE JUMPING!!!
And watching amazing race asia makes me wanna go bungee jumping even more.
Yes, it looks scary.
Yet it looks thrilling.

I'm confident i have the courage.
Maybe only for now till i get up there.

But the day i go bungee jumping in new zealand will be the day i can die without regrets. :D

2010-11-08T15:25:00.006+08:00

This.
Kinda perks you up a little. :)

2010-11-08T14:40:00.000+08:00

One of the top things on my after o's to-do-list: Get a camcorder!!!
I told my dad the other day, and he seems kinda keen on the idea.
The camcorder we have at home is super oldddd and HUGE. lol.
My parents had used that video cam to film my sister and i when we were still babies/toddlers/kids so you can guess how old it is already.
My dad says it's difficult to even get those kind of film tapes already. lol.
And those old tapes we had can't be played anymore now cos' they're spoiled.
Gah. What a waste. :(

I'm considering getting the flip mino HD, or flip ultra HD,

It's simple, reasonably priced, and super handy.
I'd probably use the camcorder more often if i had this.
But i don't think my dad would want this because it's really small and it makes the video turn out shaky. And the memory capacity is only 8GB wth?!
And being a camcorder designed for convenience and simplicity, the video quality will most likely not be idealistic either.

So now i'm considering SONY HANDYCAMS!
Sony is renowned for its handycams so they should be good.
But i've got to consult my dad first cos he's much better at these stuff. :)

Another thing on my o's to-do-list: Get a new phone!
But seriously. I don't know what phone to change to even till now!
It's been 4 months already and i'm still clueless!
The only phone that i want now is iphone which i probably won't be getting until i have the courage to face the feeling of guiltiness of having to waste my dad's money again, or the courage to face rejection. And unsurprisingly, i'd prefer the latter. :)

And i swear i'm gonna throw a hammer at the tv if i see the fly to seoul advertisement on tv again! Okay, more like a tissue box and tissues soaked with my mucus, cos it's not worth destroying my tv screen for them.

2010-11-08T13:57:00.007+08:00

Oh yay i just changed my keyboard!!!! :D

Why am i being so childish and stupid being excited over little things.
Oh well. I hate people like that. But still, i changed my keyboard!!!
Been tolerating the old one for so long now since it's so difficult to type cos the keys are so stiff lol. Now my fingers has muscles -.-
I swapped it over with the old computer which hardly anyone uses now,
so good luck to that person who will have to use it. Especially ever since my mom quit her job, and she's been using the new computer like every single second of her life. I wonder if anyone feels frustrated sometimes.
Oh well. Just don't come near my computer and i'm fine. :D

OKAY SO SS PAPER IS OVERRRR!
It's almost like our o'levels is over already but i still don't get that feeling yet because since i screwed all my science papers, i really need to depend on my paper 1s to pull up my grade. So yeah. It's still not party time for me until all my paper 1s are over, which is also when o'levels is officially over. -.- But i can hear people party-ing away already *stares at jas*.

I'm extremeeeely grateful to God for today's paper cos
2 out of the 3 chapters that i studied came out! :D
I studied healthcare, d&d and venice and in the end, healthcare and venice came out! I was planning to study governance too actually but ended up not having enough time, so yeah. Thank God! The whole 5-day-to-study-ss thing didn't work out for me at all because i was feeling so relaxed after hist & bio that i took a break off from studying on thursday and friday. So i literally only had saturday and sunday to chiong SS. But micky jiejie's (yeah i know, what a lol name rightttt) friends came to stay over at fontaine aka. my olevel concentration camp on saturday and distrupted my studying plans. :/ So i guess you know how i was panicking yesterday. Like, one day to study 2 chapters - healthcare and d&d. It was badddd. And of course, i spent almost half my day in church yesterday so i had no choice but to bring my SS notes along.

Oh btw, message in church yesterday was quite good.
The preacher is an extremely good speech-maker i reckon. lol.
And the message motivated me to become a better soldier, an athlete, and a farmer for the Lord. :) It's so comforting knowing that our Lord will always remain faithful to us, even when we are so faithless.

SS paper turned out to be quite okay except that i didn't finish my paper, again.
Oh well, at least all is over now.
Thank God so extremeeeely much. :D

Gonna take a while on the computer before i return back to my books.
Somebody please teach me how to study for chineseeeee.

2010-11-05T12:47:00.000+08:00

GOT TO DANCE UK
totally ruleeees.
I love AKAI! He's so freakin adorable and as a matter of fact, extremely talented. :D
Matthew and unity youth were reallyyyy impressive tooo!
But i was really sad that james hobley didn't get into the live semis. :(

Well but i'm sooooo gonna watch the whole season of the show!

All of you should go catch it too! :)

2010-11-04T08:37:00.003+08:00

A beautiful movie. :)

2010-11-04T07:42:00.006+08:00

Children’s letters to God

* Dear God, In Sunday School they told us what You do. Who does it when You are on vacation? —Jane
* Dear God, I think about You sometimes even when I’m not praying. — Elliot
* Dear God, Did You really mean “do unto others as they do unto you?” Because if you did, then I’m going to fix my brother. — Darla
* Dear God, I didn’t think orange went with purple until I saw the sunset You made on Tuesday. —Margret
* Dear God, I read the Bible. What does “begat” mean? Nobody will tell me. — Love, Allison
* Dear God, Are you really invisible or is that a trick? — Lucy
* Dear God, Is it true my father won’t get in Heaven if he uses his bowling words in the house? — Anita
* Dear God, Did you mean for the giraffe to look like that or was it an accident? — Norma
* Dear God, Instead of letting people die and having to make new ones, why don’t You just keep the ones You have now? — Jane
* Dear God, Who draws the lines around countries? — Nan
* Dear God, The bad people laughed at Noah — “You made an ark on dry land you fool”. But he was smart, he stuck with You. That’s what I would do. — Eddie
* Dear God, I went to this wedding and they kissed right in church. Is that okay? — Neil
* Dear God, What does it mean You are a Jealous God? I thought You had everything. — Jane
* Dear God, Thank You for the baby brother, but what I prayed for was a puppy. — Joyce
* Dear God, Why is Sunday School on Sunday? I thought it was supposed to be our day of rest. — Tom L.
* Dear God, Please send me a pony. I never asked for anything before, You can look it up. — Bruce
* Dear God, If we come back as something — please don’t let me be Jennifer Horton because I hate her. — Denise
* Dear God, My brother is a rat. You should give him a tail. Ha ha. — Danny
* Dear God, Maybe Cain and Abel would not kill each other so much if they had their own rooms. It works with my brother. — Larry
* Dear God, I want to be just like my Daddy when I get big but not with so much hair all over. — Sam
* Dear God, You don’t have to worry about me. I always look both ways. — Dean
* Dear God, I bet it is very hard for You to love all of everybody in the whole world. There are only 4 people in our family and I can never do it. — Nan
* Dear God, Of all the people who work for You, I like Noah and David the best. — Rob
* Dear God, My brother told me about being born but it doesn’t sound right. They’re just kidding, aren’t they? — Marsha
* Dear God, If You watch me in Church Sunday. I’ll show You my new shoes. — Mickey D.
* Dear God, I would like to live 900 years like the guy in the Bible. — Love, Chri
* Dear God, We read Thomas Edison made light. But in school they said You did it. So, I bet he stoled Your idea. — Sincerely, Donna
* Dear God, I do not think anybody could be a better God. Well, I just want You to know but I am not just saying that because You are God already. — Charles

“You are a letter …. written not with pen and ink but with the Spirit of the living God.”
— 2 Corinthians 3:3

And yes, adorable kids, adorable children of God. :)

2010-11-04T07:05:00.007+08:00

Now i can finally breatheeeeee normally.
All the important papers are over now, all except SS,
which is making me so relieved.

But nah, my misery is not over yet.
It probably won't be till i get back my results which WILL be full of shit. I know it.
I screwed english chem physics bio.
To me i think history was rather okay because i finished more than i usually do during most history papers. But i still didn't manage to finish. Lol. Yeah, i only did half for both the last 2 sbq qns. I know it's bad but i'm contented already.
Eng and chem was ://// shall not talk about it anymore lest i suffer from depression.
Initially, i was the most confident for my physics paper but i came out of the hall OPPRESSED because i realised i did so many things wrongly!
I know everyone thinks bio was easy, but i just have the feeling that i won't do well.
Well on a comforting note, i would die from shock if i don't get a1 for both math papers. :D

I just pray that the Lord will continue to sustain me till the end like he has done for the past 6 weeks. It's almost already a MIRACLE.

Now, perfect scores for all chem physics and bio paper1s, GO! :D

2010-10-29T06:58:00.001+08:00

There's no point crying over spilt milk there's no point crying over spilt milk there's no point crying over spilt milk there's no point crying over spilt milk!
Can someone pls drill this phrase into my head! Grrrr i'm so upset over my chem paper and it's hard to get over that last question. You know how bad it feels when you actually got the right answer in your head, but because you are unsure of the answer you didn't write it down and left it BLANK instead. And when you get out of the exam hall, you realize that THAT was the correct answer?! You probably don't know how bad it feels until you're in my shoes, but trust me, you'll never be so stupid to do smth so silly like i did. Why didn't i just write my damn answer down! Even if i wasn't sure bout it, i mean i lost 2 marks just like that. And 2 marks is a hell lot of marks. It can easily cost you a grade! I've been dwelling on this ever since i got out of the exam hall and the only way i'll ever get over it is when i get an a1 for chem, which is entirely impossible, so i'm going to dwell on it for the rest of my life.

And now, it's no point crying over spilt milk.
Just look ahead and get on with your life.
But heck, it's easier said than done.

2010-10-28T06:55:00.000+08:00

OH HI :D
Been watching a lot of how i met your mother, ugly betty, desperate housewives, amazing race and antm lately. Gosh do i miss my tv. :D

2010-10-10T06:25:00.001+08:00

But i feel pressured too though.

From expectations, from not wanting to disappoint people who've been really supportive and encouraging towards me all these while. Or just fom my own will to do well and make my parent's proud (for once) and glorify God.

But stupid crazy mad bonkers older cousins actually thinks i'm up for rjc; like: "hsiaowoon where are you aiming for? RJ LA!" And my aunts and uncles expect me to do better than my sister cos i'm more hardworking than her and erm from psle t-score i did better. But come on, my sister is intelligent and mature, isn't it normal that she'll do well? But i'm not at all. And my language sucks so much i have a huge disastrous problem with expressing myself. And i'm not as good as you think i am. I can't understand why people have such high expectations from me.
This is like the total opposite situation from what my sister was facing. I really wish i could be in her situation; no one expected anything from her cos we all know how much she'd prepared and her 4 points did come like a huge surprise for everyone. So now. Everyone expects me to get at least 6pts, and if i don't, i'll just bury my face in the ground.

Well but at least i have 2 months to enjoy myself before i face up to reality.
But is it not normal to feel kinda, afraid?

But thank God for my dad. My dad was very encouraging. I guess he sensed that i was feeling kinda stressed by the whole o'levels thing. Like just one single exam determines your future. Well maybe not really so but, it's just an anology. They don't even give you space to prove your capability. I told how my dad how ppl have really high expectations for me and he told me not to pressurize myself and that he doesn't expect much from me so don't worry. "don't worry", just two simple words but coming from my dad, it meant alot. You may think which father in the world would be so bad as to look down on their child like that? But no, it's actually the most comforting thing i've heard ever since stress and the exams took its toll on me. It meant that i don't have to care about what others actually think about me when the results are out because they don't matter. What really matters is that i don't let myself down and my parents down and God down. Because God doesn't really care if you're a dim-wit or president scholar. The president-scholar is nothing if he doesn't know God. What's the use of getting first class honours, 9a1s if you don't know God?

Today's message on god's will for me duing yf made an impact on me. God's will for me is not to get 9a1s. God's will for us is to do his will - to obey him, to spread the gospel, to serve him, to know him. So what if i do well in my exams? Will God love me even more? No. But he who does God's will will inherit God's kingdom. And God's kingdom is the most precious, the most important. No, it's the ONLY thing that is important in our lives. Our positions and status on earth comes down to NOTHING. What really matters is that during our short lifespan on earth, we do His will. After all, earth is not our home and we're just a passing through.

So let us just commit everything into God's hands
and live by faith.

2010-10-10T06:11:00.006+08:00

10.10.10
It's a nice wedding date lol.

Is it not normal to feel this excited for the end of o's?
I'm thinking about it every single second now.
I feel lost. hopeless. The first time in my life (as long as i can rmb) that i feel hopeless.
I feel so unprepared for 0's, and there's still so much more to do, yet the only problem now is time. I wished i could have more time. No, i don't. I don't wish there's more time cos i don't wanna spend any second more studying. Cos it sucks and it's dreadful. It's everything but fun. I guess my only wish is that the aeroplane carrying my papers just crash into sea. And all my misery will be gone. :)

Anything can happen right now. The paper could be so difficult that i would feel really depressed after o's. The papers could be really easy that my mind would be in relax mode i can't concentrate. I could be extremely unlucky the topics that come out would be the one i deliberately didn't revise. I could probably not finish the paper on time and continue scribbling like i usually do but this time, get caught for cheating and be sentenced to lifetime misery.
Or i could have a sudden fit due to extreme nervousness, faint in the hall and everything that i revised would go to waste.

I think too much, don't i.
Well i guess everything is in God's hands. I will do nothing but trust in his might.
If he plans for me to fail, i will. If he plans for me to get 6pts, i will. If he plans for me to get into the tourism management course in sp, i will jump for joy! :D (And it prolly be my only comfort for doing badly for 0's other than christ himself).

Keep faith and breatheeeee,

2010-10-01T00:13:00.008+08:00

I WANTTTTTT! :D

Btw. I will name my daughter brielle in the future. :D

2010-09-30T23:27:00.003+08:00

2010-09-30T23:25:00.002+08:00

“We wake up everyday with a list of wishes, and maybe we spend our lives trying to make those wishes come true. But just because we want them, doesn’t mean that we need them to be happy.”

—	Ned, Pushing Daisies

So i guess.
I shall make do with what i have now and be happy. :)

2010-09-30T22:32:00.004+08:00

Oh hi again. :D
I'm back home after missing in action for 4 days!
First thing my dad said to me when i came home - LONG TIME NO SEE! Yeah, it's kinda scary at the thought that i've not seen my dad in 4 days. And my sister too. And it's not like either of us are overseas.
At least we still get to skype when my dad's overseas.
Actually i've not seen her yet cos she's already sleeping in the room. lol.
She makes sure she sleeps at 10 like, everyday. Without fail.
Everytime at 10pm: okay i need to sleep. I need to get my 10 hours of sleep.
And i'm like -.- I only get like, 6 everyday?
But it's getting better now since i've been skipping school and i get to wake up at like, 9 in the morning everyday. The feeling is just great. :)
Yeah but i still see my mom though cos she pops by like once in 2 days,
and i see my maid like everyday when she sends lunch and dinner to me. :)
My maid's an angel. Haha. :)

OKAY WELL. What am i doing here right.
I'm totally wasting my time.
Okay, i should get back to downloading my songs then ask my dad some math questions then get back to my 'HOME' and play my guitar (and disturb all the neighbours) and do my quiet time and then... SLEEP!

Long day tomorrow!
Graduation! And i'm going SHOPPINGGG!
Hahahaha. Yeah you didn't hear me wrongly i'm going shopping and i'm excited! :))))

Well well well. Is it right to constantly think about life after o'levels?
I'm like thinking about it every single second.
And i've made a whole list of events going to happen and things i'm gonna do after o'ssss! It's really LONG and GREAT and omggggg, can o'levels just end like, now.

2010-09-28T13:54:00.002+08:00

MCR BRINGS TO YOU :D

OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG :D

2010-09-28T13:07:00.007+08:00

Yeah i know i should be in school today.
But oh well, i've not a bit of interest in sitting for mock exams. :D

So yep. I came on the computer to, erm. Type out my testimonial and send it to mrs. xie. Omg i totally forgot about it... and it was due like, on the 8th of sept. Sorrrry. :
And you know how difficult it was for me to write that damn testimonial!
I almost wanted to write:
Hsiaowoon was a member of the Guitar Ensemble from 2007 to 2010.
She hates her CCA and has made no contributions to it.

Well of course, after giving serious thought about it,
that wasn't what i wrote in the end.
I need to learn the skill of selling myself, right. :)

Oh anyway. Friday's yf exco meeting was a fun one.
Butttt we brought up yf anniversary and i've a whole list of things to do in preparation for it. And because of it, i spent like the whole of saturday, sunday morning, and this morning thinking about yf anniversary. I've drafted out my invitation cards, bulletin, planned out my guest list, brainstormed on doorgifts, refreshments, games, special item and made a whole list of deadlines.
Yf anniversary is on the 11th of dec, and i was like really scared that i wouldn't be able to do everything on time by then, since o's ends only on the 15th of nov, and yf camp starts on the 6th of dec.
But i will start preparation even during the period of o's. No choice.
Haven't i started now anyway? lol. :D

Oh well. I'm really really really looking forward to life after o's!
I'm like thinking about it every now and then. EUROPE TRIP!
But it's not really beneficial to me cos' i can't concentrate on studying.
I wasted my whole weekend thinking about yf anniversary. lol.
Church on sunday was good too.
Went to church at bout 12.30 for children's day celebration, church service started at 3, and yf at 5. Led games and ms. tay boon jin spoke on the theme "i love the way God made me". Will be starting a series of gospel messages from the 24th of oct to 28th of nov. Hoping to invite some cousins and friends along. :)
I'll pray about it.

Btw, prayer is really important.
I heard the holy spirit speaking to me about prayer thrice on the same day - last friday. First it was during my own quiet time.
Second, when elisabeth gave devotions during exco meeting.
And third, when pastor gave devotions during prayer meeting.
Jesus tells us to pray. It's not a choice, it's a command.

And i guess it's true: challenging and tough times really makes you trust in the Lord all the more.

Father Lord, thank you for challenging times, that in it we can learn to trust you more. Thank you for Your promise that you'll be with me every step of the way, it really comforts me everytime, knowing you are with me. Lord grant me the strength, the dilligence and perseverance to study without complaints. Grant me also, the peace in my heart. Lord thank you, for being my friend. Thank you, for listening. Thank you even more, for wanting to listen.
Lord, i don't understand why you have chosen me, but thank you, for loving me.
Amen.

2010-09-24T14:50:00.003+08:00

Came back home today to print out the previous minutes and agenda for yf exco meeting today. Ah, was wondering why meeting was chosen to be held at church at 5pm today. Then i learnt, prayer meeting at 8pm.
I'm obliged to go, am i? Well. I guess this is God's calling for me.
I shall go to Him to seek solace under His arms.
And everything shall be better.

2010-09-23T14:42:00.000+08:00

People don't actually know the one reason why i'm skipping school/why i dread going to school is not just due to the sole fact that it's an utter waste of time.
People don't actually realize that i skip school to avoid places where there's people.
I've learnt to enjoy the company of myself and God.
It's the easiest, and happiest way to live - alone.
And it's even more evident especially at helpless times like these.

Skipping school again tmr.
Beautiful days like these makes moi happy. :D

2010-09-18T08:45:00.008+08:00

I'm not dead yet if you're wondering why i disappeared all of a sudden.
It's just that, i've been studying! And i've not used the com for i think, 5 days already?

So i shifted my things to fontaine parry (the condo less than a minute walk away from my house) on tuesday. Been staying there to study for the past few days and slept over for the night yesterday. It's rather nice and peaceful there; no computer, a portable wireless router which i have no idea how to operate, thankfully. An antique tv with no scv, an ipad with only news, bible and dictionary apps, and a cabinet and fridge packed with fooood. :D So great. Nothing to distract me from my main purpose in life for the next 5 weeks. Only that it's kinda cosy in here and it's hard to stay awake sometimes, especially when the sun goes down.

Going to have a new study partner from today.
Zhihao will be coming over almost everyday, i think, to study.
I won't be so lonely anymore. :)

Anyway, we got back all our prelim results already.
Sad to say but, my highest is emath - a1.
Surprisingly, my 2nd highest is english, which i got a 74.5. (thanks mrs. tahoe)
And the others are just shitttt.
Chem - a2
Bio - B3
Physics - B4
Amath - C5
Comb humans - C5
Omg i can't believe i actually failed history!
I knew i wouldn't do too good, but at least get a b3 or 4 or smth.
But i actually failed! And i think everyone else got an a1 for history.
It's weird cos i've all along been doing rather okay for history, and suddenly, now. :
I think this is God's way of telling me that i need to work more on my history.

Yeah, so. The final 5 weeks are really crucial.
I really need to pull up my grades now. I've got no second to waste.
Even though the future seems so gloomy right now,
but i'll just stay positive, do my part, and leave the rest to God.

Do you feel that the Lord has forgotten your need.
Just remember that God is always working in ways you cannot see.

He never sleeps, He never slumbers.
He never tires of hearing our prayer.
When we are weak He becomes stronger.
So rest in His love and cast all of your cares on Him.

2010-09-13T00:56:00.000+08:00

“Life is a series of pulls back and forth. You want to do one thing, but you are bound to do something else. Something hurts you, yet you know it shouldn’t. You take certain things for granted, even when you know you should never take anything for granted.”
“A tension of opposites, like a pull on a rubber band. And most of us live somewhere in the middle.”
So which side wins, I ask?
He smiles at me, the crinkled eyes, the crooked teeth.
“Love wins. Love always wins.”
— Tuesdays with Morrie - Mitch Albom

2010-09-12T02:00:00.012+08:00

I LOVE NCIS!!!! :D
OMG MEGA CRAZE AT THE MOMENT!

I just can't get enough of it. :)

2010-09-11T22:58:00.002+08:00

Did you see the moon today?
It was so pretty. :)

2010-09-11T00:57:00.006+08:00

It's already 1am in the morning now, shit.
It totally seemed like today was a saturday.
Met up with vigi and kenglui in the afternoon at raffles city to shop for hazel's birthday pressie, and i was so cursed MY SLIPPER ACTUALLY BROKE!
I think, unlike karen, i'm psychic. I've got a fifth sense.
I had a feeling that that slipper would break soon, but i still wore it anyway, and gosh did my prediction come true.
Yeah so i had to waste time finding a pair of slippers for replacement.
Wanted to get smth i liked (in order not to waste money), but nothing caught my eye and i had to settle for a plain old ordinary ripcurl slipper. And it actually hurts walking in it. Beat that. I'd probably never wear that slipper out ever again.
Wasted time, waste $$$.

So after we were done, went to one fullerton to meet ingeli!
Omg esplanade was extremely crowded today k!
Probably cos it's public holiday and the esplanade was infested with ppl.
Anyway, studied at starbucks again.
It wasn't really productive, but, what's new eh? Just as i expected.
Went to meet feli at esplanade library in the evening and the cafe was about to close, and so we had no choice but to head to marina for dinner instead. So we took a long long time to decide where to eat and finally settled at manhattan fish market.
Shared seafood platter and some baked fish set, and paid $20 for my dinner. :/
Ingeli and feli had to pay like more than that cos they ordered mudpie lol.

Yeah so today when my dad gave me a ride to the mrt station he actually told me to try not going out to study so much (practically, it's every single day) cos eating out is an absolute waste of money (likeeee 2 meals per day and not forgetting, snacking :/), and he wants me to learn to be thrifty. So yeah. I kinda thought about what he said when i was on my way to cityhall and i felt kinda guilty. For spending money like water.

But then, i spent $30 solely on food today. How ironic.
And it's not like i was having a special meal or anything. lol.

And i totally went against my diet plan today!
But at least i didn't eat the mudpie!
That's a relatively optimistic sign!
I'm feeling hopeful now. :D

So, my thoughts after today:
1. I know i know i know i can follow my diet plan if i try to!
2. I need to stop spending money like water and learn to be thrifty!
3. I love catching up with friends :D
4. I wanna go shop shop shop shopping!
5. I'm starting to love john mayer :D
6. And junren is afatassloser even though i may not know him at all.

HAHA.

Okay, gonna start arranging and packing my stuff.
My eyes are getting freakin irritated by the big MESS. :/

2010-09-11T00:43:00.001+08:00

“The best remedy for those who are afraid, lonely or unhappy is to go outside, somewhere where they can be quiet, alone with the heavens, nature and God. Because only then does one feel that all is as it should be.”
— Anne Frank

2010-09-10T00:01:00.000+08:00

Yeah, i hope. :D

2010-09-09T23:51:00.000+08:00

OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG!
You guys remember remember remember this?!
I'm totally freakin out alright!
I was literally squealing out loud when i was watched this!
And guess what was my immediate reaction after seeing this on youtube -
DOWNLOAD IT! I'll never want to release hold of my childhood.
I remember watching kenan & kel like everyday during my p1 & 2 days.
Seriouslyyyyy. I miss it so much!

I'm so glad i found you. :D

2010-09-09T23:49:00.000+08:00

Haha. I don't mean to ask you to reblog.
But hey, i just saw this on tumblr,
and it reallyyy stirred up the child in me! :D

From the top:
Remember dexter & the laboratory,
cow&chicken, johnny bravo, catdog,
RUGRATS! (myfavouritecartoonever!), as told by ginger,
hey arnold, the angry beavers!

Cartooooons :D

2010-09-09T23:26:00.004+08:00

Reason why oprah is going off the air?
Drake, lol.

2010-09-09T22:34:00.009+08:00

Okay, so tomorrow's gonna be the last day of our holiday, so to speak.
Shit damn. I feel so unaccomplished!
Disappointingly, i think i wasted my holiday.

This week was supposed to be meaningfully-spent mugging like that's-all-i-live-for, but i guess staying home for the past 4 days for me, was like indulging in a deluxe holiday, and the tv motivation strategy didn't pay off at all!
It was such a bad idea to have chosen to stay home in the first place. :(

Nevertheless, i'm trying to look at the bright side of the situation.
There's still one more day left for me.
I'll be studying out with feli and ingeli tomorrow.

I hope that'll help.

2010-09-09T10:59:00.001+08:00

I'M SO MOTIVATED TO
GO ON A DIET NOW.

I know i've said it like a billion times.
Like, omg. Hsiaowoon how many times have you said it already?!
*Turns and stares at mirror* And look at you now.

Okay yeah. That's why i have to.
And i'm really really really serious this time.
I promise. :D

2010-09-08T23:29:00.000+08:00

"It's quite different to live with girls. Because there're so many fights that go down between everyone. And it's just so uneccessary."

Ren is like the most real person i've seen on antm. Love her. :D

"It's pathetic. It's ridiculous. Are you in high school dude?
It's not cool to fight, okay."

And jessica serfaty was so adorable saying that. :D

2010-09-08T23:20:00.002+08:00

Words that don't exist in the English language

L’esprit de escalier: (French) The feeling you get after
leaving a conversation, when you think of all the things you should have said.
Translated it means “the spirit of the staircase.”

This word totally states how i feel all the time.

2010-09-07T22:43:00.000+08:00

2010-09-07T22:08:00.004+08:00

Ahhhh i'm not in the right condition to study today.
At least that's what my brain tells me.
A part of me knows that i neeeeed to study.
While the other part just simply refuses to work.

I don't know what happened.
Maybe cos my sister's home today,
and there's so many things going in my head.
Worthless things.

But if it stops me from doing things that i know are important,
maybe it's worthy. At least i'm convincing myself that they are.

Whatever it is, i just hope i'll return back to my normal state tomorrow. It's 10:29pm, and i think i'll be hopeless trying to do anything right now.

These beautiful little rascals. :D

2010-09-07T00:30:00.000+08:00

"See? That's the thing with you plastics. You think everybody is in love with you when actually, everybody HATES you! Like, Aaron Samuels, for example, he broke up with Regina and guess what? He still doesn't want you! So why are you still messing with Regina, Cady? I'll tell you why, because you are a mean girl! You're a bitch! Here. You can have this. It won a prize."

We love Janis Ian! :D

2010-09-06T21:52:00.003+08:00

There are times where we just want to be left alone.

2010-09-06T21:49:00.000+08:00

19Wherefore, my beloved brethren, let every man be swift to hear, slow to speak, slow to wrath:

20For the wrath of man worketh not the righteousness of God.

21Wherefore lay apart all filthiness and superfluity of naughtiness, and receive with meekness the engrafted word, which is able to save your souls.

22But be ye doers of the word, and not hearers only, deceiving your own selves.

23For if any be a hearer of the word, and not a doer, he is like unto a man beholding his natural face in a glass:

24For he beholdeth himself, and goeth his way, and straightway forgetteth what manner of man he was.

25But whoso looketh into the perfect law of liberty, and continueth therein, he being not a forgetful hearer, but a doer of the work, this man shall be blessed in his deed.

James 1:19-25 :D

2010-09-06T21:21:00.003+08:00

School days with a pig

2010-09-04T21:43:00.007+08:00

I'm in love with them. :)

2010-09-04T03:28:00.003+08:00

There's a girl i met online.
Her character, her thoughts, seem totally alike to mine,
and she's from NY.

It's so amazing how people from opposite ends of the world,
can actually be so alike.

2010-09-04T02:33:00.016+08:00

Okay. So there's pretty much nothing to blog these days so i'm filling my blog with stuff-i-find-hilarious/interesting.
It may not amuse or interest you, but whatever.

So prelims are over, and we're back in school after a short break.
For the past 2 days we've been having JC talks in school. Yay, slack.
But that's not the point. The point is.
I don't know what JC i want to go to now!

It was easy at the beginning of the year, cos like, it was obvious that VJ's almost every students' dream college. And it was mine too, at first. My will to get into VJ became stronger when my sister became part of VJ and started coming home everyday ranting how VJ's so fun and everything and how it's so much better than all the other JCs. But that was only during orientation, and when she was still enthusiastic bout school. And everything in VJ was only what it seemed on the surface.
But guess what now. She tells me that VJ is full of muggers and they mug like every single second of their lives, and they're not as fun as before. To put it simply, she hates life in VJ now. And the most contradicting thing is, i came home telling her how fun-loving her principal is, and she actually told me that everyone in VJ hates their principal!
Likeeeee, so who am i supposed to believe now? My sister, or myself?
Alright, but whatever it is. I'll never get into that darn school with such an out-of-the-world cut-off point! And what's worst is i only get to minus 3 bonus points! That makes entering VJ much harder! :/
On a happier note, SAJC seems like a rather nice school. Nice principal. Nice facilities. And it's considerably close to my house. Just that i've heard many bad things about SA out of the presentation. And their A'level results ain't too good either.
Esther lai has totally made a name for herself, in a bad way. At least it seems to me.
Though i think she's rather down-to-earth. She seems to know the needs of 21st century students, and tries her best to meet them, though i'm not so sure if she's using the right methods. But still, MJ is an uprising school, and i'm quite certain MJ will add value to me.
Especially with esther's pushing. I'm a person who does need lots of pushing.
"We do not have the highest retention rates, in fact, we have the lowest retention rates!"
Joke of the century. But why do i still think she's honest in some way?
TJ's talk was just a total failure. My favourite part out of the whole presentation? The Q&A session. :D Was the talk useful? Yes, very. It was useful in helping me make up my mind, that i'll never enter into TJ even if i can make it in there. :)

For now, i think i'll just aim for VJ. Even if it's almost impossible that i'll make it.
(Aim for the stars, even i miss, at least i'll land on the moon :D)

So today's the last day of term 3.
What does this say for me?
I neeeed to start muggingggg like crazy!!!
We've gotten back some papers (like really really few) already.
Chem paper 1, physics paper 1, emath paper 1.
Chem and physics were so-so, but emath was bad.
But i did not hold high hopes anyway, so i'm not disappointed either.
And i know i can definitely do better if i put in more effort.
So there, the worst has not come yet. Paper 1s are like nothing when you count up the overall score. I'm actually happy that we're gonna get back papers like, the week after holidays, cos it gives me the chance to concentrate on my studies during the holidays without any worries! :D

Few things that didn't go right with me today -
1. I got a discipline report, again.
And who's that idiot teacher who made me sign it i can't even remember!
Caroline ho? I'm trying not to believe it's her.
I didn't know she was that mean as to actually PASS UP that green form.
That really sucks.

2. Mrs. xie almost made me go back to school on monday morning to pass up my report book. That's like so retarded. And when did they ever collect the report books?
How come i didn't know about it lol. :D

3. Mrs. xie made the most ridiculous request of asking us to clear the books under our desk.
Likeeeeee what. What kind of impossible task was that.
Hahaha but luckily i was intelligent enough to outsmart her. :)

OKAY. But i wasn't too smart the fact that i threw my class photos into the dustbin!
Though i hate to say that word, but that was plain dumb of me. :(

After school, went to study at the airport.
Stayed till 11pm and luckily i managed to catch the last train. :)

So well. Mugging camp next weeeek!
Why am i not excited?

My life has become a boring pop song, and everybody's singing along.

2010-09-03T11:53:00.000+08:00

2010-09-03T02:37:00.000+08:00

2010-09-02T11:14:00.006+08:00

Anyone ever wondered how Glen Coco looked like?!

And none for gretchen wieners.

LOLLLLL!

2010-09-01T11:07:00.003+08:00

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I can't believe i didn't know this!

2010-09-01T10:00:00.001+08:00

“No. No, you can’t… STOP. Please don’t go away. Please? No one’s ever stuck with me for so long before. And if you leave… if you leave… I just, I remember things better with you. I do, look. P. Sherman, forty-two… forty-two… I remember it, I do. It’s there, I know it is, because when I look at you, I can feel it. And-and I look at you, and I… and I’m home. Please… I don’t want that to go away. I don’t want to forget.”
— Finding Nemo

(Ilovedory)

2010-08-31T21:35:00.013+08:00

Alright. I'm back from the meet up with 6R peeps today! It was great. :D
Met up at macs and talked over lunch before going back to see ms. lim.
We were hanging around the canteen most of the time while ms. lim was busy with work, and finally she was free to meet us at like bout 3.
So we managed to catch up with ms. lim till the guard chased us out and we continued talking at the gate lol. Had a pretty nice time but the sun was scorching hot and it was unbearable. We spent like an hour contemplating where to go after leaving the school. Most of them decided to go crash at zach's place for soccer, but han, vidi and i were reluctant and we left for a movie instead.

Managed to reach amk hub just in time for the grown-ups!
Omg the show was effing hilariousss!
The theme was there but the plot's all over the place.
It's the kind of movie where watching it once is enough. :D

So today's meet up was rather nice.
Though i didn't get to talk much to most of them
(stupid www kept crapping lol),
but just meeting up with primary school friends;
people whom i've spent my childhood with,
the people whom i've known for almost my whole life,
the feeling of us coming & being together is just so heartwarming,
and i thank God, for these people;
these people who have played such a special part in my life.
Thankful that i'm from 6R, thankful that i'm from parry. :D

And it's actually quite amazing how our friendship can last till so long.
Though the numbers were obviously lesser than the previous years,
but almost everyone's in the midst of their prelims.
Luckily mine is over. :D

Oh anyway, i heard the mostttt hilarious joke on earth today from naomi!
(beats all the cold jokes from xy and www lol)
Naomi said her cousin overheard this on the bus during 2 'kpop fans' conversation,
and omg. She is an efffffing LOSER!

Loser: Oh my gosh. *Whining* There's so many people liking shinee now. When did you start liking them? I started to like them since RING DING DONG.

HAHAHAHA OMG! I was bursting in laughter immediately after naomi told me that.
Seriously what's wrong with that girl?! She's a total joke!
Ring ding dong? Wtfffff. And she actually thinks that is honourable?
I'll be totally embarrassed to say that out. And how is she in the position to complain that other people are worst than her? She is loserish enough.

Okay right. You'd probably feel insulted,
but senior kpop fans would find this hilarious too.
I'm like so so so comforted to hear that there's somebody
who was a kpop fan and is getting effing irritated by how kpop is so overrated now.
It makes us not want to like kpop anymore.
Naomi and i were both kpop fans.
The only difference between me and her is that i was one, but she's still one.
Naomi said she can't stop liking them and is keeping it to herself now.
Well, that sounds like me before,
but i think i've succeeded in finding a better life elsewhere. :D

Yeah so hell it would be in singapore indoor stadium on the 23rd of october.
A gathering for a bunch of LOSERS.

2010-08-31T05:19:00.005+08:00

EMMYS OPENING SKETCH = HILARIOUS!

Hahahaha Jim parsons won outstanding lead comedy actor! Sheldon cooper!
Though i would have loved it if my dearest adrian monk won!
But 'when i'm gone' got outstanding music & lyrics!
And yay to jane lynch who won outstanding supporting comedy actress!
I wanted tina fey to win lead comedy actress though. I love her. :D
So dr. house didn't win lead drama actor for house.
Modern family for outstanding comedy series!
Hahahaha glee didn't win. Like, :DDDD
I love 30 rock and the office too though. :)

And i've got to start watching this show,

Okay that's all for now.

Btw, Lea michele looked stunning. :)

2010-08-31T02:18:00.018+08:00

Hello again. Today's the last day of prelims!
Oh well. It seemed like last friday was anyway. :D

Went to somerset with mich, shuqi and zixing today!
We were there so early, at like 10? It was so darn early all the shops were still closed.
So we went to buy movie tix first and had lunch at mark lee's shop. lol.
And then hmv-ed again! Listened to david choi's album.
David choi is lovelaye. But what's up with the sudden craze over david choi?!
Shiling, michelle, michelle's brother?!
Just like on saturday, ling was ranting to me how baybeats was like awesome cos of him, and michelle's brother actually got his autograph or smth? LOL!

Anyway, we parted ways with shu and zixing,
and mich and i went to watch step up 3!
(i wanted to watch salt at first but mich wanted to watch step up so i did)
The dance in step up 3 totally crashed the previous 2!
And the best part was, tWitch boss was inside! :D
But the storyline was lame and cliche as expected.

After the movie, we went window shopping and talked about a whole lot of stuff while shopping. Haven't got to talk to her in a while and i was really glad that i had a chance to today. Talked to her about things close to my heart, some things i can't talk to most friends about. It was really nice and i really thank God for a friend like her. :)

Reached home, watched the emmys,
and had serious MIGRAINE.
Boo. That really spoiled my day. :(
Oh but icerockz!!! Hahahaha!
Omg i felt quite bad after they told me that the shopkeeper was actually inside. lol.

Meeting up with 6R tmr after teachers' day celebration!
Yipeeee looking forward to it! :D

Alright, it's like 3:32am now and i think my dad's gonna barge in at
any time now bugging me to go sleeeep. So yeah. I should go.
Why not after i get my emmys 2010 updates?
I hate myself for getting a migraine.

And btw, i changed my playlist.
The world, undeservedly, needs a treat to some real good music. :)

2010-08-29T18:34:00.000+08:00

It's so rare that i'm back home early from church today.
My mom and dad are attending my grandaunt's wake,
sissy is at church, and my maid's like having her off-day,
so like i'm all alone now, and the house is quiet.
Gonna watch national day rally later on. :D
Must support my-fellow-southpaw-prime-minister!
Hahahaha and what's up with me and my southpaw craze? lol. :D

Anyway. Met up with chels, jasmine and shiling yesterday!
Went to clarke quay again since i told them about the august bazaar lol.
Had a hard time deciding where to eat since there was so much to choose from.
Eventually decided to eat at some cosy organic food restaurant lol.
Caught up with them over our super-early-dinner and talked about lots of stuff as usual!
LAMO! NEON! TED! BARNEY STINSON! MO DEN FAMILY!
OMG FUNNY TTM! :D I love this bunch of kids.
Continued crapping while checking out the stuff at river market.
But nothing was new to me since this is my third time there this month.
Only got a $12 hawaiian bangle i bargained for 8 bucks. cooool. :D
Settled down at starbucks and we played monopoly deal!
Haha i hereby pronounce that i'm a monopoly-deal-pro!
But stupid shiling broke my winning streak. Boooo her lol.
And chels a loser at just saying no. Haha.
Left for home at about 11pm. :)

Well, i missed the SS teacher's dinner today for them.
Luckily corinne didn't manage to make it too, otherwise i would feel really guilty.

Anyway. It seems like many people are passing on recently.
Aunty doris and aunty siew eng's mom. My grandaunt.
And pastor quek told us about a 47 year old pastor in the philippines (supposedly to turn 48 this tuesday) who passed away all-so-suddenly this week. He was a great man of God, and no one knew the reason why God took him away so soon..
And even though i've not seen him before, the work he has done for God really touched me.

Something that pastor quek said today really struck me:
We can go at any time.
Don't always think you'll live until a hundred.
You may go ten years later.
You may go tomorrow.
And what will you have done for God?

What will i have done for God?

2010-08-29T02:00:00.010+08:00

Okay idk why listening to CNA's music (the ones they play while showing like, news reports) gives me the feeling of aussie. It's been like this since sec 1.
And damn, i'm missing aussie now.

Let time rewind to go back to the 12th of december 2009. Please.
I just realized. Will be flying on the 12th of december too this year.
I just pray that i won't miss christmas in singapore.

Our last stop~
I'm getting a good feeling about this. :)

2010-08-28T23:59:00.001+08:00

A friend is one who knows us, but loves us anyway.
Idk why i'm getting so sentimental. But i really felt this strongly today.
Thank you chelsea, jasmine, shiling, for being in my life. :D

2010-08-28T02:21:00.002+08:00

Silently AWAITING

31ST AUGUST 2010.

I was made for sunny days. :D

2010-08-28T02:10:00.001+08:00

Hi hi hi! My sister just introduced to me a indie folkband called the weepies.

They're absolutely quirky,
and i think i love them. :)

2010-08-28T01:09:00.006+08:00

Missy Higgins.
Her jazz hued voice calms your spirit,
warms your heart, draws you away from reality.
Even if it's for a short moment;
a short moment of bliss.

And i think i love her.

2010-08-27T23:46:00.008+08:00

My dad's getting irritating pestering me to go bathe lol.
I hateeee the feeling of being pestered. It frustrates me, a lot.
Oh well. Doesn't it like frustrate everyone else? :D

Went to citylink HMV today to find 'the way i am' book!
They didn't have it there but the salesgirl told me to come a week later cos they'd probably help me get it lol. :D Yay i'm sooo exciteddd. I can't wait to get my book!
Haha first time in my life i'm looking forward to READ A BOOK. :)
So though i didn't get what i want but i was still satisfied with my time there exploring the new albums by various artiste and getting a free treat to pretty good music. Something i have not done in a long time.
It seems though that acoustic song covers are getting more popular nowadays.
But i still prefer singer-songwriters. :D
Went to clarke quay after that, did a few chem mcq qns at macs and then went to shop at the river market! It wasn't really good but i did manage to get some stuff out of it. I really loved my paris scrap album that i got from skyroom!
Planning to make one holiday trip scrapbook from it after our end of year holiday trip to europe! Hahahaha it's gonna be so nice. :D

So today was a rather enjoyable day though the papers in the morning were not so much the same. But well. I swore that i'm gonna mug hard after prelims didn't i? :)

Anyway teachers' day is coming soon and hopefully we'll get to have a gathering! It's been ages since we've had one and i miss everyone.
Thinking of it, it seems like i've not seen so many people in a long time.
My life these days have been school-clarkequay-airport-home-school-clarkequay-airport-home-church. And occassionally i get to see jasmine, chels, daryl, inge, www, and my cousins on weekends. And my life stops here.
It's getting so so boring. And 3/4 the time i'm all alone because i'm trying to avoid studying dates with friends because i can't concentrate with them around (Though there are still exceptions sometimes when i feel like seeing them). And i think i see the cleaner at liang court macs more than i see anyone else in my family. Because when i'm home, my sister coops herself in the room (sometimes studying, sometimes surfing the net, but most of the time sleeping -.-), and my mom doesn't talk to me, and my dad's the only who has time to talk to me when he gets back at 10pm, but he gets frustrated with me all the time cos i keep blabbering stuff which he thinks is all bullshit and childish and shows off my ignorance. Oh well. Okay. I just hope my o'level ends off quickly so i won't need to deal with all this shit and i can revert back to my life. :D

I feel like i'm neglecting God too. Darn. :(

Guitar, english tuition and SS teachers' day dinner tmr.
Need to squeeze in time for a little chem. ;)

2010-08-25T23:19:00.009+08:00

So finally a break. We're beyond the halfway mark and it feels, eh.. normal.
Probably cos i didn't stress myself up preparing for the papers and everything was as relaxed as it is right now. I think i was spending more of my time feeling stressed over the fact that i knew i was going to screw the next paper up.
This is my typical, pathetic, self.
But i swear i'm gonna mug hard right after prelims. :D

So today i managed to go down to kallang to catch YOG table tennis matches live. :)
The quarter finals were exciting, but too bad my dad didn't watch it cos he left his office without taking the tickets with him and was very late. -.-
Anyway. The semis were boring. Needn't say more.
And i can't stand singaporeans who love koreans fullstop. Effing losers. :)

And here's smth that's gonna make these losers GO BANANAS.
*Hides under table and prepares for an earthquake*
I just read on the internet and realized that there's gonna be kpop night in singapore again this year on the 23rd of october. They will be bringing in big artiste like bigbang, shinee, snsd, ftisland (and infinite like, who gives a shit) omg.
But my reaction is so like -.- now. Totally uninterested and literally rofl at all the retarded kpop fans. Well this years' kpop night certainly rules out all the other previous stupid seoul'd out concert events, and this. is. huge.
Haha, and i'm so glad i'm not going to be part of that stupid business. :D
So good luck to all SG kpop fans! Get tickets, just like how everyone else standing foot on this ground is going to too. Yes, everyone else except me. :D

OHHHH AND CAN SOMEBODY BUY ME 'THE WAY I AM' BOOK?
I want it so badly! Haha this is odd. I guess this is one of the very rare times where i actually do desire to have something so badly. :/

Just logged into facebook a while ago since there's nothing else to do,
and once again, i was digusted by how the facebook world is such a virtual world.
It's a place for people to find comfort in being someone else they can't be in reality.
This goes for people whom i know, and as i look them up on facebook;
the way they portray themselves - they seem like a totally different person.
And it disgusts me.
Well. I know i can't judge because i'm not an avid facebook user,
but all i'm sure of is that facebook is not for me.
And i'm effing proud of it. :D

Tmr's gonna be a good day.
Yay.

2010-08-24T00:04:00.010+08:00

So i've not posted (properly) for a week now.
Hah, looks like i'm slowly transforming into a mugger toad.
Yeah but this is the most i can do if i don't wanna fail my prelims.
But it doesn't seem like any burning-midnight-oil-strategy is paying off now.

7 papers down. 7 papers screwed.
Screwed english o'level oral today too.
My performance today was waaaay below my standard.
I could have done so much better, really.
And it sucks to have left the hall with regrets.

Don't wanna talk about it anymore.

My tv is like tuned onto YOG channels these days,
so much such that i'm even neglecting my only-source-of-laughter family guy now. :( And NCIS! Hahaha, yes i finally did put away with my stubborness and decided to watch NCIS! And omg, like all the million reviews out there, NCIS is superbbbb :D I love abby and gibbs! If you haven't watched it, GO WATCH! Highly recommended. :)

Well anyway, the games has been pretty exciting thus far.
Gonna go down to the venues this coming wednesday and thursday to catch some of the action live. Once in a lifetime opportunity, i don't wanna miss it just because there's prelims. I already sacrificed the opening ceremony (which my parents went) for my studies last saturday when i went down to study with ingeli and www at the airport. That's enough a sacrifice though it wasn't fruitful at all.

Oh yeah. We've finally confirmed our end of year holiday trip.
Europe it is. My mom decided on it but it seems like the rest of us aren't too keen on it. All i can do is just pray for the best, and learn to be thankful. :D

Alright now.
SAY HELLO to another busy weekend.

2010-08-23T23:24:00.003+08:00

Eminem is lefthanded.
Somehow i just had a feeling that he was a southpaw and went to check it out,
and omg, yes! He is a lefty! Lol i think i can spot southpaws really well now.

Eminem being a fellow southpaw has just made me love being one a whole lot more.

Hahahahaha do you wanna be one too? :D

2010-08-19T01:46:00.003+08:00

ESCAPISM
The tendency to escape from daily reality or routine by
indulging in daydreaming, fantasy or entertainment.

Finally. One of the only things i'm good at. ;)

2010-08-14T02:54:00.008+08:00

Okay so hazel thinks i'm weird. And mad.
Hmmmm. Then why does elis think i'm serious and so perfectly normal?
Of course i'm not weird, and i'm oh-so-perfectly-normal. Okay, i admit i'm not such a serious person, but i can get serious at times. Like, really. Like in situations where,
1) I don't feel comfortable with the people i'm with
2) When there's smth important to do and no one's getting it done
3) I don't feel happy

So there. I still wonder why elis said i'm a serious person the other time.
No one's really told me that before.
Maybe it so happens that i'm always in a bad mood when i'm with her,
or maybe i just don't feel at all comfortable around her,
such that it's so hard to just be myself.
And that somehow explains the strange behaviour of me suddenly bursting into dance and tunes while studying with jasmine and michelle.

Someone please help me regain my sanity. :)

2010-08-14T01:49:00.013+08:00

Was at airport macs studying today and saw some of the country yog teams at the arrival hall. Chinaaaa -.- Argentinians are damn cuteeee.
That typical indo-european look that's so freakin hot. :D

Okay, chill.

As i was going home today i kept seeing people in purple and red shirts.
Purple and red is officially my most hated colour for the time being.
Looking at singaporean YOG volunteers wearing the YOG shirt just makes me so jealous of them. Shit prelims. Shit o'levels. Why do we have to sit for o'levels on the same year as YOG?! Such that we don't get to be part of this world-class event, and plus, it's a once in a lifetime opportunity! It sucks so much when you think how much you've missed out not being able to be part of YOG. :/
And how 'coincidental' it is to have our prelims clash right exactly into the YOG period. It's insane to not complain to the ministry that schools are showing their support for YOG only on the surface. Look whats really going on inside the school, behind closed gates. They are deliberately deciding dates for prelims just so it clashes with YOG so their sec 4s will not 'waste' their time on 'useless' things like YOG and mug instead. How is that for faking a front going "Go team Singapore!"
Screw you AHS. A bunch of sly scheming principals and teachers.
Okay, i'll leave the man out. The 2 women should just go hang themselves.

Idk why i'm being so enthusiastic about YOG these days.
Probably cos of the wide media coverage, and how i'm getting the feel of the YOG spirit coming alive in singapore. Though not much at all. (And it's disappointing)
But as a singaporean, i do feel excited about YOG. (Surprising it is. Must be propaganda from the media lol!) For the first time, all the eyes of the world will be on us. A tiny red dot. What honour it is to be standing on the world stage.
And from what i see and read on the news, it does seem that singapore has really put in much effort in ensuring that this YOG will not be a let down; it won't let anyone down - the world, the international olympic committee, and ourselves.

I am looking forward to watching singapore shine. :D

It's just a pity i won't be having the time to go down to the venues to catch all the action live. All thanks to the 2 women in our school.

Oh ya, i saw sean on tv today!
Was watching yog news on channel 8 and saw sean like doing his boxing/judo/idk whatever-aggressive-sport training lol. Cooool. :D

2010-08-13T23:52:00.007+08:00

Did you know that August 13 is designated as Left-Handers' Day?
As the name suggest, this day celebrates the uniqueness and difference of
left-handers in a predominantly right-handed world.

Left-handers have achieved greatness in many walks of life,
but particularly in creative, sporting and artistic fields,
where their natural talent for lateral thinking and ingenuity
have made a huge contribution to all our lives.

5 of the latest 8 US presidents are left-handers;
Barack Obama, George Bush, Bill Clinton, Ronald reagan & Gerald Ford,
and it's not as if they picked left-handers out deliberately.
The greatest inventors, world heroes, artists, musicians and scientist of all time are left-handers;
Bill Gates, Benjamin Franklin,
Julius Caesar, Alexandar the Great,
Leonardo Da Vinci, Michelangelo,
Ludwig Van Beethoven, Jimi Hendrix,
Paul McCartney, Bob Dylan,
just to name a few. :D

& the following 2 names just pawnssss EVERY RIGHT-HANDED BEING whose ever lived on this earth.
Albert Einstein and Isaac Newton were both left-handers!

American idol Season 7 had both left-handers as the final 2 standing.
"As I watched my two teenage daughters scream when David Archuleta sang on Idol, I suddenly noticed that he and David Cook were both signing autographs with their left hand."

Well, some people may think that the statement given to left-handers saying that
left-handers are a rather highly-talented bunch is just smth superficial or simply a myth, but hey, these names are here not by chance, if you think about it closely,
they do actually prove something.

Matt Groening, creator of The Simpsons,
is a fellow lefty and he made his lead character Bart Simson left-handed as well.

And if you would care to know,
Justin Bieber's left-handed too! LOLLL. :D

So here's wishing all my fellow southpaws,
a Happy Left-Handers' Day! :D

"Everyone is born right-handed, but only the greatest overcome it."
-Brilliant author unknown HAHAHAHA :D

2010-08-12T15:13:00.009+08:00

Study Study Study Study!!!

It's hard to keep my mind off worthless stuff.

Stewie: Now, I'm going to do something I like to call the
'Compliment Sandwhich" Where I say something good,
talk about where you need improvement,
and then end with something good.
Brian: Whatever you gotta do...
Stewie (flips notepad): Something good... something good...
You look like SNOOPY and it makes me smile...
but you have smelly dog farts.

Everyone needs some good laughs. :D

2010-08-09T18:34:00.013+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE. ;D

It's not surprising that no one's in celebratory mood.

Anyway, it's 7:34pm now and i've wasted my day away not studying again.
You can't understand how helpless i feel now.
Just yesterday i was talking to ms ngian and felt so damn freakin worried that i'll not be able to finish studying the syllabus by prelims. I told myself to mug hard from yesterday onwards, and felt so determined to accomplish my targets of reading through all chapters of bio, chem, physics and practicing amath by like this friday or smth but now, it's kind of IMPOSSIBLE.

Church ended fairly late yesterday at bout 6:30pm.
YF FORUM WAS GOOD, and rev robert chew really helped me in deepening my understanding of my faith and just being spiritually refreshed.
Though out of the 42 questions that were prepared, we only had time to accomplish like 7 questions. They were mostly questions of God's righteousness, the theory of predestination, sin, evangelism, the contradictions between the bible and science and also the practices of the charismatic churches.
But i loved how rev robert chew made his points across clearly, and had opinionated views; not judgemental, but showed us how there may be controversy in perspectives, but concluding his explanations with personal feelings on issues where answers are not absolute, and definite answers on those that needn't him to say anymore; assuring us with answers that suffice on issues that were difficult to explain and comprehend. Now my faith is strengthened, and i can understand God better. About why he allows tragedy and sin to occur in this world, how predestination does prove of God's love to humankind, how we should persevere in reaching out to people even though they may seem all happy and contented without God (no one actually can feel truly happy without God, just maybe the time hasn't come for them; they haven't sensed the need for Him YET), how God and science do not actually contradict, and how wisdom can save us from sinning.

I have confidence in my Lord. :)

Went to eetheng's new house for her house warming party after church.
Eetheng's new house is likeeee just down the lane from my house. (Less than 30 seconds walk from my house lol) And her house is like Bella's old house! Bella is like my sister's kindergarten friend fyi lol.
Anyway i had a good time with my cousins, i guess. Though everyone was like busy checking out each others' iphones and ipads and macbook and complaining about how the aircon in the room sucksssss. It got kinda boring after a while and i thought of coming home to study since i BADLY need to study. But of course i felt so dreadful to study and decided to stay on.

AND AND AND did everyone know it before i did?!!!!!

Guess what.

My cousin.
Has.
A.
China.
Girlfriend.

OMG OMG OMG OMG. :O :O :O :O :O

Is this insane or what.

Phyllis, ching, celine and i were in the room upstairs and then suddenly sinwee came in with a girl, and immediately there was awkward silence in the room. I was like thinking, oh new girlfriend ah. And then she opened her mouth and spoke! And i guess you can guess what we were thinking...
Apparently phyllis knows her and she was like talking to her so comfortably using a china accent. :X Phyllis is tooooo innocent.
When she went out, ching and i immediately went like "omg who the hell is she?!"
And phyllis was like "errrr..."
And i was like "girlfriend ah?"
And phyllis was like... "yeah... she's micky jiejie."
Apparently phyllis knew her cos she was at dagu's house and she played wii with her lol.

So when all my other cousins arrived, all of us like went over to another room (leaving sinwee and his girlfriend alone) and gossiped about her. And then han, sziying and ching went back to talk to her, to get to know her LOL. I was like, wth.
But i managed to talk to her later on during the night and she's quite nice.
We asked her how they met and everything. Apparently they met during a party in shanghai and sinwee asked for her number -.-
But i can sense that all my fellow cousins do not quite like her.. And even eetheng agreed that she was like a kid. :/

But i do admit that she's pretty, and very tall and slim. LOL. :D

Okay so my sis and i went back after camwhoring on sziying's macbook at about 11:3opm. Wanted to study but ended up sleeping on the sofa.

Woke up this morning, bathed, went for guitar lesson, came back, and i've been watching tv from morning till now. I really can't stand how i keep coming here and rant on how slack i've been because i get really disappointed with myself all the time.
I don't care. I MUST study overnight today if i want to accomplish my targets.

Zhimin and er jiu mu came over around noon with itineraries and information they enquired from different travel agencies.
It's almost like we've banked on europe - particularly italy, switzerland and france.
My sister's against that though since she thinks it's not worth the trip.
Reasons:
1) It's winter
2) It's expensive
3) She doesn't think our grandparents will enjoy it
I don't think my dad's loving the idea but he'll go with it.
My mom's more on - i'm going for gong gong and po po.
I'm more with my mom's stand this time.
We've not confirmed with my grandparents yet though.
They're getting the final say, whether this trip is on or not.

Anyway my sis, er jiu mu, dad and i are considering taiwan as we think it'll be good for a family holiday together but there were no discussions on that since i think zhimin's and er jiujiu is strongly against that idea.

OKAY I THINK I'M GONNA WATCH TV A LITTLE WHILE LONGER AND START STUDYING TILL TMR MORNING ;D

I want to pon school on thursday and mug for prelims if that's possible.
But i'm still unsure of it. Should i?

2010-08-06T21:02:00.001+08:00

Had a very very very fun day out with fellow 4F clique!
Lunch at manhattan. Neoprints. Childrens arcade. Camwhoring at marina barrage.

And happppy super-duper-early birthday VIGI. :DDD

Hope you enjoyed the day. :)

NDP celebration was like -.-
And the face painting was screwed.

Didn't go for the movie with ingeli and the rest since i was feeling kinda tired already.
Headed home afterwards and now here i am.
Going to bathe and have an early night rest. :)

2010-08-05T23:50:00.006+08:00

Today's such a happy day!
Went to study with mich and cheryl at the airport after school today.
Omg how long has it been since i've really sat down and talk to them.
The only time i get to talk to michelle is whenever we walk up to class after morning assembly, and cheryl... on the phone and on the mrt whenever i meet her.
So it was greatttt catching up with them. I had a fun time. :)
But we were like talking 3 quarter the time again, and i didn't manage to do anything. Within the 5 hours i spent at the airport, i studied only like 1 quarter the chapter of metals. Is that pathetic or what. And i actually planned on studying 3 chapters of chem, finish physics and amath test papers?! How insane am i.

But somehow i just feel really relaxed today,
perhaps cos i'm looking forward to tmr, and the days after where we'll get a full 4-day break off from school! I'm excited for my holidays. :D
Yet it's ironic cos we've got to study for our prelims. :/ The thought of it should be spoiling my mood by now, but very weirdly, it doesn't. Maybe cos i don't even feel stressed at all, and i have no freakin idea why is that so, when i'm so so so so damn freakin not prepared for prelims.

AHHH I DON'T GET ANYTHING ABOUT MYSELF RIGHT NOW.

The only reason why i want to do well for prelims now, is perhaps to prove to my teachers that i'm not that dumb student who has no hope in doing well, just so they think. I can't let them look down on me.

AND THE EARTH IS STILL SPINNING ;D

2010-08-04T23:11:00.001+08:00

Dramaaaa day in 4F.

Everything has its end. ;)

2010-08-03T22:33:00.005+08:00

"The day you can start wearing make-up is the day you learn that you don't really need it."

-Gabrielle in Desperate housewives

2010-08-02T22:37:00.012+08:00

You are not the god you think you are.

Total MORON.

2010-08-01T23:30:00.007+08:00

GUESS NO ONE'S BLOGGING.

No one but me.

Everyone must be all mugging for prelims now.
Gosh. And i've been slacking the past 4 days?
It's only exactly 2 weeks till prelims and i've still not really started studying.
Like my content knowledge is still almost ZERO, and the worst things is - i can still be so carefree about it. :/

I neeeeed divine intervention!
But most of all, i need motivation.
I need to help myself.

Anyway, we asked gong gong where he would wish to go for a holiday,
and he said he wants to go to holland! Omg me tooooo! But i'm not so keen on going to any part of europe during year end since it's winter and you can't get the best out of the european countries during winter. The adults are still in the process of thinking where to go.... It's hard. Every country has its pros and cons. But china is definitely OUT OF THE QUESTION. And this is the thing that excites me. :D

Alright, i'll go start studying now, though it's already 11:37pm and i'd probably won't be able to do much. LOL.

2010-08-01T23:20:00.000+08:00

2010-08-01T22:38:00.000+08:00

The world is a rainbow
With many kinds of people
It takes all kinds of people
To make the world go round

-The world is a rainbow :)

2010-07-31T15:02:00.004+08:00

OMGOMGOMGOMGOMG.
I'm feeling so duper happy now!

Just went for english tuition with my cousins and we were practicing orals. :/
Okay let's not talk about it since my english tuition teacher is a LOSER.
Just some old british lady who has short term memory loss and never admits that she is wrong. Had a big argument/quarrel with her while i was doing oral with her.
In the end she graded my oral and gave me a 24/40? And maha said i speaked well?
How ironic.
No matter how she claims she's not picking on me, i know very well that she is. :)

Anyway. Ilovedoingoral cos we get to chat when it's not our turn and,
we disccused about our end of year holiday trip together!
And i found out that EVERYBODY OPPOSES THE IDEA OF GOING TO HK-MACAU-ZHUHAI! EVERYBODY INCLUDING MY GRANDPA!
According to zhimin&hao, he wants to go everywhere except china! :D
Oh gosh i have such a cute grandfather!
And so we are planning to ask him to choose some other country tomorrow when we go over to his house for dinner!
Shortlisted places: Korea, Japan, Australia, New Zealand, any where in Europe.

I'm definitely for australia and new zealand since i loveeeee self-drive holidays!
But it's kinda funny going with my cousins because i usually go on self-drive road trips with my family alone and i'm always doing the planning. :) I guess the only road trip we went with our cousins was to adelaide.
Korea and japan is fine too. I've been to those places before and it's pretty. :)
I'd rather backpack in europe which will be ABSOLUTELY CRAZY if our GIGANTIC family does backpacking together. But it'll be fine if we go on tours. Danube river!

Okayyy but i guess i shouldn't expect too much because it's not all confirmed yet.
But my cousins and i have come up with plenty of reasons to NOT GO TO CHINA,
and this is making me hopeful of convincing all the adults!
Needless to say, my grandpa is on our side!

Waiting for my mom to come home to fetch me for hair treatment lol.
And then i can tell her my plan! :D

Am i wasting time btw?
I've wasted the entire thursday and friday,
and now i'm wasting my saturday going for hair treatment lol.

Okayyy nvm. I'll be back with good news. Hopefully. :D

CHURCH CAMP 2010

2010-07-31T00:05:00.022+08:00

Emmanuel Church Camp 2010 :D
14 - 19 June 2010,
Rompin Beach Resort, Malaysia.

Have you ever thought what heaven is like?

To me, church camp provides a foretaste of what heaven might be. It is like heaven on earth for a brief, but blessed moment of joy, peace and hope.

Church camp is an ideal retreat from the daily grind of mundane life, to the oasis of spiritual refreshment where one is drawn into a deeper experience with God. It is a “heavenly home” where campers learn and meditate on God’s Word on vital aspects of Christian living. To many campers, the messages enable them to reflect on their lives and challenge them to new heights of spiritual maturity. In past church camps, biblical themes like “From Doubt to Faith”, “That I May Know Him” and “Holding Fast Till He Returns” were expounded by ministers of God, moving and challenging the soul, heart and mind of the campers to live victorious and fruitful lives for the Lord.

Besides listening to and reflecting on God’s Word, participants at church camps also had opportunities to get to know each other through workshops, games and meals around the table. Indeed, the warm fellowship among the brethren at camp provides for the kind of interaction wherein “iron sharpeneth iron; so a man sharpeneth the countenance of his friend” (Proverb 27:17), which further deepens the close ties among us. There was great joy when one non-Christian friend came to camp one year, heard the Gospel and prayed to receive Christ into her heart.

With the same unspeakable joy, I have just experienced ‘heaven on earth’ at this year’s church camp held at Rompin Beach Resort from 14-18 June. One day, the experience will not be just for a brief moment, but for an everlasting eternity with God in the heavenly camp.

Written by: Dn Chee Sing

Building God's people,

5 memorable days,
1 beautiful camp. :)

2010-07-30T20:37:00.014+08:00

Few things are on my mind now.
It's bothering me.
So i shall spill it all out before i can concentrate on studying. :)
And probably have my fair share of the com too afterwards. :D

1. I can't get over the whole ipad thing.
I want an ipad so badly! Been using my dad's ipad since i came home 2 hours ago, and it's so fcking (sorry i don't mean to be vulgar here, just want to emphasize my point) nice! My sister's itouch is totally INCOMPARABLE to my dad's ipad okay!
Ipads are waaaay much nicer to use and beautiful to the eyes. :)
Gosh, they're making me want an iphone more now!
But everyone knows how common iphones are. Like almost everyone has it, and it's so unoriginal to own one now. So i'm starting to forget that idea of getting an iphone. But i'm still so madly in love with iphones.
Going down to check out phones tmr with my family since my contract is due and my mom wants a new phone too, so i hope i'll find a phone that i like that i can willingly change to.

2. I misssss one tree hill!
After seeing the boxset at hmv, i really want to watch it over again!
I stopped following the series when i finished watching season 6 after i learnt that chad and hilarie burton wouldn't be back on the show for season 7, and lucas and peyton would be portrayed as being travelling and spending time with lucas's mom and bringing up their child. Like, what is the show without lucas and peyton and brooke not being with lucas. That sucks, seriously. But OTH was freakin nice and i feel like watching season 7 & 8 now! Season 8's gonna be the finale and it should be airing some time later this year.
What more, the producer said there was an 80% chance that chad and hilarie will be back for the season finale which is like :) :) :) :) :)
Bones and house (the fox series i'm currently on now) are getting hard to understand! :/

3. Jay chou.
I still can't believe i didn't go for his concert. :(

4. DBSK are gods of the east.
It's been so long and i'm still dwelling on the matter of db's TEMPORARY separation.
It still makes me sad thinking about it and watching the new kpop groups debuting one after another is making me go zzzz frustrated. And now that everybody's loving kpop, and db becomes neglected, it makes it sadder. :(
I got so agitated when hazel commented on db in a way which implied in some way or another that dbsk is part of kpop. Like omg, dbsk is not your typical kpop ok!
They are in a whole different class and league of their own;
They are dongbangshinki/tohoshinki/dongfangshenqi AKA. the gods of asia.
They are TRULY gods. In japan, in china, in korea as well. And i can't accept it that no one recognizes that in singapore. And considering them kpop?!
Omg! Dbsk. Is. Not. Kpop.

5. I wannnna go elsewhere.
Am i demanding too much?
Sometimes i do think so.
People always tell me that i'm already very fortunate yet i still complain so much.
I realize that too, but it's hard to bring myself to feel contented/happy about it though i try to - the fact that i'm going to hk-macau-china during the end of year holidays. All i feel is disappointment. With my mom. With her choice. With the fact that this holiday is not going to be a good one (or at least i think so).
I love to go to places that are pretty; somewhere where i can steal away from city life and just enjoy relaxing, tranquil moments, somewhere where i can stop to think about life, somewhere where i have all the time in the world, somewhere where i can experience that the world is beautiful, somewhere where i can explore the world and realise that life is a splendid gift, somewhere where i can experience new adventures of a life time, somewhere where i can taste a whole new different experience/culture, somewhere enthralling, exciting and fun.
The melbourne, australia road trip last year was a pretty one. I was expecting something like that again this year, or probably even better. Like new zealand, or canada (likeeee :DDDD, but i'm not so eager to go to canada now since i plan go backpacking there on my own), switzerland, holland, or tasmania.
Anyway, you guys should all know how i love travelling A LOT and always look forward to my overseas trips during school holidays. Perhaps that's all i live for actually. And knowing that i'm going to hk-china is really killing me now. :/

6. Hints?
Everything i say are not hints ok! Everybody clear now. :)

OKAY. Anyway.
Had lots of fun today during school and after school.
But i'm not gonna talk about it further since this is supposed to be kept as a secret.
And hahahaha i had fun lying!!! And hinting!!! ;D
And just hanging out with those people. :)

I MUST BE MAD. ;D

I can't believe i'm checking out travelling destinations in tasmania and new zealand as i write this post. I guess i'm still hoping that we won't be going to hk at the end of the year. But it's probably impossible cos we're going on a family trip with our cousins, grandparents and all.

I pray i'll just accept the fact quickly and move on with life...
Still, i have my o'levels to deal with. :)

If we do go to hk-china as planned, maybe we'll be able to go to egypt next year as quoted from aunty laimei! :D

2010-07-27T00:05:00.013+08:00

My dad didn't tell me he was coming home!
So i was pleasantly surprised when i spotted the figure of a familiar old man sitting behind the glass door. :D

Anyway, i was beaming with excitement as usual - to see what he brought back for me! Hahahaha sorry i'm just such a loser at times like this - especially when he's back from the states or aussie. :) Well, and i'm glad to say, his purchases didn't disappoint me this time! Though the amount of things he bought was fewer than the usual, but i'm still thankful. :)

And he bought an iPad too! Omg, iPads are the most ingenius inventions in the world! They are really soooo soooo nice! Everyone should just get one, really! I had so much fun using my dad's, and i obviously want one too now. But apparently, the iPad over at the states is even more expensive than in singapore. Idk why my dad had to buy it from the US when he could get it cheaper here lol. :D

But well, it doesn't bother me at all, as long as i can use it. :)

Oh yeah, the only disappointment was that i was hoping my dad would get an iphone for me in the states, but he didn't.

Ahhhh, i envy my dad now.
Why does he always get to go overseas,
and to beautiful countries,
and why am i stuck here... D;

2010-07-25T13:10:00.007+08:00

Burning a cd for calvin again since he lost the other one.
It's not only wasting my time but it's getting frustrating yo. :/
Nvm, PATIENCE.

I'll just read upppp interesting stuff and acquire knowledge in the mean time. :)
Lol, like anyone would believe me.
I should learn to start reading like my sisssy.
Like interesting stuff, not those kind of stupid chick flicks.
But on top of all the entertainment & lifestyle channels, i actually enjoy watching documentaries. Like those on discovery channel, nat geo, fox, etc.
It's just that the sight of words (esp. incomprehensible ones) just bore me to death.

Anw, yesterday during our car journey to dinner,
my sister turned on to yes 933 and guess what,
they were doing a jay tribute!
That really revived the jay fan in me. :)
And though it has been ages,
i'll never be embarrassed to say,
I love Jay Chou. :D

Guess the computer's done burning. :D

2010-07-25T09:32:00.006+08:00

My aunt popped over at my house before we went for dinner yesterday and i learnt that my family has planned to go to hongkong-macau-zhuhai-guangzhou-shenzhen for our end year holiday.

My immediate reaction was like,
WHATTTTT?!!!!

:(

My sister and i were both extremeeeellllyyyy disappointed when we heard that.
Likeeeeee. Haven't we been to all those places before?!
So why are we going there again?!
And it's not like the places were so nice or anything!

Later i found out that we were going with our maternal side cousins and aunties and uncles for a some sort of a family vacation.
Just to shop, eat, and have fun together. :D

Well, though i'm still not too keen on it, but that definetely calmed me down.
Because my cousins are lovely and it'll certainly be fun with them around. :)

But it's kinda like deja vu cos the last time we went to hongkong-macau-zhuhai in 2005, i was there on a trip with my PATERNAL side cousins. It was fun too.

But i was hoping for something else more exciting i guess.

And my dad actually promised a trip to new zealand last year. :(
He broke his promise, again.

Not like i'm in any way surprised by it.
Nvm, i'll make sure he pays me back double hahahaha. :D

2010-07-24T09:26:00.004+08:00

Fly. To infinity and beyond.

2010-07-23T22:35:00.009+08:00

Mom's friend's over at my house now. :)
I have a sudden craving for cereal.
Or just anything nice. I probably get killed by my sister for eating at such a late time if she finds out. I don't really care though, since i eat after midnight like, all the time.

To sum up school this week,
it's getting more fun nowadays.
And jiarui is super duper funny ttm :D
Recess is like having a picnic.
Teachers are still boring.
But lessons aren't cos i refuse to listen to them. :D
We went crazy with bullets yesterday during chi double period.
Staples stuck on people's hair is a freakin amusing sight.
Hazel is getting crazier and crazier each day

and she keeps shocking me with the many weird things she does,

for example - making weird noises under her breath. LOL.
We finally recalled how to sing yin wei ai. :)
Kenglui still thinks she is canadian.
And she's angry with cheryl for some reason. :O
And xianijan OSTs are the best OSTs ever.
Well but we've completed the sec 4 syllabus for all subjects already. yay. :D
But we're having so many test these days.

More than ever before, and it's hard to keep up.
Our teachers should just try to chill a little. lol.

Went to study with mk, jas, and daryl on wednesday at NLB!
We stayed till 9pm at night, so yes, i was actually just a short distance away from jay's fansign event. I was there in the afternoon (and was amazed by the looooong queue of people holding jay's ablum tightly in their hands), but decided not to go for it and study instead. :(
Jas, mk and daryl were all impressed with me okay! And even mk agreed with me that it was a once in a lifetime opportunity. And i missed it. :/
Okay so yeah. I slept for half the time i was at NLB and talked for the other quarter.
But i still managed to cover most of the chem chapters tested the next day! :D

I wasn't home to catch this but i still made it point to watch it on the internet.
What a loyal fan am i even though i don't keep up with kpop any longer.
And i must say, i'm IMPRESSED.

But i was kinda disappointed that they didn't manage to beat miss A to win mutizen though. Though i must admit that this jyp's-sub-label-company-AQ entertainment's new rookie artiste's song is a great hit and dance cheorography is hot.
Job well done pjy. :D

Next week, it's Lucifer. :D